@Ellehcim 12 October 2025

Pt. 1 (Oct 09, 2022) At this point, I am just getting things done, so I won't feel guilty. I absolutely hate the cycle I am in, yet, I just keep on going, because it'd be costly to undo what I already started. I tried many alternatives, to find what I do fun. I tried scheduling stuff before I sleep, or just wake up really early to do it, or just do when I want to. Nothing seemed to stand out to me. I am still unproductive as heck. I hate it. I hate myself. I can stay awake doing unnecessary things, yet, I sleep on important tasks.