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You Lost Me: I Lost You

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Written by   643
2 weeks ago

I have always dreamed of a love that is real, a love that is worth fighting for. That is why when I met you, I thought I already found the one whom I will fight with but will also fight for until the end.

I still remember the first time you talked to me. It was so sudden and unexpected because I never thought I'd receive a message from you. At first, I thought your message was offensive enough that doesn't deserve to be replied to. But because I was curious about who you were, I still replied with some sarcasm in it.

I must confess, my first impression of you is arrogant. And I think you already knew about it because I was frank enough to say of what I think of you. But I gave you the chance to prove me wrong. And indeed, I was wrong about you.

You were not arrogant. I misinterpreted your kindness. You were generous. You were supportive.

Hours turned into days, and days turned into weeks. I was easily attached to you because we would always talk every day.

Some days you would go missing and that's the time I would wonder what happened to you. I would think, maybe you lost your phone. Maybe you forgot your password. The worst is I would think that you got yourself into an accident.

Then you would come back again. You would ask me how am I and we'll talk as if nothing happened as if you did not go missing the whole time.

I was already attached. I thought I was already falling in love with you.

But you lost me.

You lost me the moment you left me wondering if you were still there.

You lost me when you chose to ignore my message and did not reply to my texts.

You lost me when you chose to give your attention to someone else instead of me.

You lost me when you gave me false hopes and pretty little lies.

You lost me when I needed you the most but you were not there for me.

You lost me when you left me hanging.

But then, I realize, I also lost you.

I lost you because of my insensitivity that even if you try your best to show your feelings, I still wouldn't feel anything at all.

I lost you because of my childishness that I can't keep up with how mature your thinking is.

I lost you because I'm too jealous and I'm a little toxic every time I behave that way.

I lost you when I chose to let my pride and ego be bigger than my love for you.

I lost you when I drove you away because that is what I am good at, driving people away from me.

You lost me. I lost you.

My mind already knows that you are gone but my heart chooses to believe that you are still there. My heart wants to think that you are still waiting.

Maybe I am still too young for love.

Maybe I still don't understand the concept of commitment and relationships.

Maybe all of these things were just part of a game.

Maybe I was just carried away that I let my emotions, this infatuation, build up inside my heart.

My heart is aching. My mind is trembling.

Sometimes, I even wish that I wake up with amnesia. That in just a second, I already forgot about you. That you did not happen and you don't exist.

But my heart is a traitor. It already reserved a space for you.

Oh how I wish you were just an illusion, but you are not.

You lost me. I lost you. And I hope we will be found by our own special someone.

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Hello!

Being new here (still couldn't upvote), I just want to explore the writers' section to learn more about the mechanism here. Who would have thought I'd get lost as well (because this reminds me of that certain phase of my life) reading your article. I was about to exit but I just can't leave. So, to say, this is my first comment here:

Reading the above write-up is somewhat heart-breaking. I was like - "aww, so young heart" all the time. That's all I would like to verbalize as I am also trying to repress my sentimental side. Plus I was playing the song "Amnesia" by 5SOS whilst reading this - it really adds tension.

As for your heart, I must assume you are now stronger than you were before. I have no considerable idea about your life, I cannot talk more about it, for now. But my wish for you is to be found - in the most perfect timing. By someone who's deserving of that beating beast inside you. Now that you are trying to find yourself (or if you have already found yourself), it would be an extra blessing to feel taken care of, feel loved, and be found.

I cannot make this long (the same thing I cannot share my side). But I will always remember this article, and the one wrote. Thank you for sharing!

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2 weeks ago

Hmmm is it a virtual guy or not? 😁 I have something in mind anyway. You will find someone willing to endure your immaturity and toxic attitudes. If that certain someone is not then he is not the one.

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2 weeks ago

Awts. First article that I've read today and it's already a heartbreaking one. 😩 I feel you. Lol But it's okay, if he's really into you, he will wait for you no matter how long it takes. If he's not willing to wait for you to be ready, then he's not the one for you! Cheer up! 🌞

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2 weeks ago

Im lost the past and i dont lost in tomorrow

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2 weeks ago

very emotional , it is very pertinent to feel in such manner when one realise a mistake made but at the same time dont let your emotion overwelme you, if he's meant for you he will surely come back but if reverse is the case, your suitor isnt far he will definitely come to you soon. take heart dear.

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2 weeks ago

Ang Lalim po ng hugot. Right man will come for you, not you who will look for him. But you could always make the first move pag nakita mo na yung the one mo. Baka torpe kasi hahaha btw wala namang age ang Love as long as it's pure it will always be worth it 😁

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2 weeks ago

ang lalim naman ng oinagdadaanan ni madam

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2 weeks ago

Ang sakit naman nito. Di bale, ibig sabihin lang nun may much better na darating. 😊

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2 weeks ago

What a story.. May your love and relation be immortal. No doubt sacred feeling is love feeling. Best of luck for more future😍

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2 weeks ago

Parang the man I have wasted lang 🤣🤣 relate.

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2 weeks ago

Wow so deep, pained and heartbreaking.

Cheer up! :)

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2 weeks ago

Maybe there is someone better waiting for each of you or the time has not come yet... We'll never know... Cheer up!

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2 weeks ago

"You lost me when you left me hanging." hits different ate :((((

ang sakit naman po ng content na 'to huhu

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2 weeks ago

It's okay. Kung kayo , kayo talaga ♥️

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2 weeks ago

The love that is worth fighting for? For me, it is the love for myself. I lost myself, I lost the love that I have for myself to the point that whenever there are people who will cheer me on, I can't even feel it for the reason that I refused their love and I refused loving myself. I closed my heart to everyone.

But one thing is for sure, the love for myself is worth fighting for to continue. slowly and gradually, I am loving myself again and will look for ataraxia:)💚💗

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2 weeks ago

Bakit wala akong maireply sa comment mo? 🤧😹 Yes, self-love parin. 💚

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2 weeks ago

Sorry ate florie, may halong kadramahan iyan🤣😂 at sino namna iyan? Akala ko si popoy mo hahhahshsa

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2 weeks ago

Isang multo ng nakaraan. Hahahaha Charot lang. Wala yan. 🤧🤣

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2 weeks ago

May pinaghuhugutan eh hahaa

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2 weeks ago

Is this real? You fall in love na before? Parang atang makaka relate si @Jane dito, about dun sa past nya.

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2 weeks ago

Haha. Yung the man I have wasted nga. Relate ako

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2 weeks ago

I fell in love with a ghost. Hahahahaha 🤧😹🤣

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2 weeks ago

Naniiii, ghoster pala 😱

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2 weeks ago

Ghostbuster naman ako. Hahahahaha 😹🤣

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2 weeks ago