Hello, to whoever is reading this right now. I don't actually know how I am going to start writing this article, because to be honest, I don't feel anything at all.
So if you noticed, I wasn't really active yesterday. I was not able to write even a single article. It is because I went out with my friends and had an amazing and memorable day and night with them.
Yesterday, I was genuinely happy because I went to my friend's house at around 4 in the afternoon. I was bored at my house so I texted my friend if I can go to her place, and as expected, she said Yes. Her house is 10 minutes away from mine, so I had to ask my father if he can give me a ride to go there, and being the only daughter that I am, ofcourse, I got there safe and sound.
I have 3 best friends around that place so I was able to bond with all of them. The first thing we did was to get tamarind from their neighbor, and we also went to the mountain just to get some, because I have been wanting to eat that fruit since last week. Just to be clear, I'm not pregnant.
The next thing we did, we ordered 50 pesos worth of Fish ball. It was my first time to eat that street food again after how many months of not being able to go out because of lockdown.
While eating, my friend named Denz Lhei brought out the idea of sleeping over at my house. The idea sounded fun so I agreed with it. After finishing our food, we went to my other friend's house to ask her if she wanted to join us. It took us about 30 minutes just to make her parents give her the freedom to join us. Amongst the four of us, Mae Monique's parents is the hardest to give permission, whenever we hang out together.
Fast forward, we were able to come home because of my loving father who picked us up at my friend's house. We haven't had proper dinner yet, so I cooked 3 pieces of pancit canton, 2 cups of rice, and prepared salted fish as our food, because that is the only available food in my house. Haha!
Right after eating dinner, we decided to watch a movie. First, we watched The Hustle, but it only lasted after 10 minutes. Second movie, we had The last five years, but we stopped watching it after 30 minutes. The last movie we watched was Beauty and the beast. And again, we were not able to finish it.
My story might sound boring, but I guarantee, it was all fun that we even had ghost stories before we slept. And we only got the chance to sleep at 11:30. Yes, yesterday, I was happy.
Today, I feel nothing. I woke up not feeling anything. I'm not sad, nor happy. I tried to entertain myself by watching different movies but it did not work.
I cooked for my lunch, and I only got to eat a small portion of it. Right now, I am sitting at my chair on my study table, thinking if there is something wrong with me.
Happiness is a choice we make everyday.
Yes, I believe in that. But am I the only person who get to experience something like how I am feeling right now?
It happens to me almost everytime I get the chance to be extremely happy, and then the next thing I know, I no longer feel anything.
Is it weird? Is there something wrong with it? I don't really know. What I know is that Yesterday, I was happy. Today, I feel nothing.
~F.M. ❣️
it's all part of being human. but it's important to be thankful for what we have. that makes a difference in terms of our mental health. upvoted!