People leave
And I warned you I would leave you first
before you leave me
so I will be able to handle it
so I won't get caught off guard and drown in the loneliness sea.
I said I would rather break your heart than my own
I was completely sure you were going to shatter mine you see,
people leave
and you did leave me, eventually.
And I kept my second promise to you.
That if you ever leave me first, I won't try and stop you.
Free road, free will
not showing you the scars you imprinted when you left,
scars you could only heal.
I just smiled ruefully when you left me
and told you I was going to be fine
I warned you I was going to break your heart
but you ended up breaking mine.
And I cursed you for it continuously.
Damn you for walking away.
Damn you for leaving me.
And that's what I thought of our situation, up until recently.
But nowadays I wonder if I got it all wrong
I wonder if I have ever been right
if fear and insecurity interfered
if pride made me lose sight.
While I was talking about leaving,
did I put these ideas on your mind?
Were you just wondering like I was
and wanted to see what I would decide?
Because people leave.
But not everyone leaves for the sake of leaving. There are some,
who leave with the intent to see
if somebody stops them.
So while I was venting about leaving,
praying not to lose you
did you wish when you walked away,
for me to hold on to you too?
✒ Clint Bling, The Mighty Pen