@Clintbling 31 August 2020 more from that month

I Wrote This Standing In Someone's Shoes

I Wrote This Standing In Someone's Shoes. I couldn't wait till its dark to paint my secret dark story I couldn't wait till its dark to start feeling this lonely I fell in love with the pain that fed me a spoon full of misery I couldn't wait till I feel guilty to paint myself with red stains I couldn't wait till I'm alone to tie my self with this pain chains I became an addict to this rush that excites me more than life I started feeling more alive as I hurt my self twisting the knife I had nothing to live for, so I made a life out of the devils skin I lived to the fullest, I wore it all over me till it wore thin I shiver a bit, I get scared a little, then I would get sweaty palms I tell my self its well deserved and get my blood on my hands I couldn't find the strength within to forgive myself for all I am I couldn't end the riot within to match my face that is so calm I couldn't be grateful for everything and anything I ever had So I choose a life that's hell like knowing damn well I needed God