Depression kills him

October 10 2021

Today ,we supposed to celebrate my grandfather's 80th birthday but we can't celebrate it with him because he's already gone.We had many plans for his birthday but we can't have that plans now because of what happened to him.

Until now I can't believe that it will happened to him.He is my mother's father.After a year of his wife death my grandmother because of breastcancer that was on last 1991 when I was a 4 months old baby he got married again .They had two kids ,my grandfather before was a company driver.He was able to finished the studies of his two kids ,he's eldest son in his second wife is now an engineer ,and her daughter finished bussiness ad.

After he retired being a driver ,he find way how to earn money for the studies of his kids ,he was driving a pedicab in the town they are living together with his second family.At his age even he was a senior citezen he works hard for his family.

I can't imagine why he did that ,because of depresion ,as far as I know he is a strong man .After many years of being a pedicab driver nagkasakit siya sa kanyang ari at naoperahan(testicular illness). I forgot anong sakit yun siguro dahil yun sa kaka padyak na.I know he is a strong man dahil nalalagpasan niya yun.After the operation ay hindi na siya nag pepedicab.

He even afraid of death although maraming siyang inindang sakit.He has a cataract and highblood pressure.He had a maintance for his highblood .He was to careful of what he eaten ,he just only eat fish and vegetables.I remembered when we had a celebration in my parents house and we invited him ,he will bring his own food coz he think we did'nt prepared fish recipe for him.

This past few years ,palagi siyang uumuwi sa lugar namin ,dun siya natutulog sa auntie ko ,we are living the same baranggay .He traveled for one hour from his home to our place .Na mimiss kasi niyang magbayahe kaya almost every month siyang umuuwi .He stayed at my aunt for almost two weeks and back again to his family.At the age of 70+ he can manange him self to traveled.

Because of this pandemic ,hindi na siya naka uwi sa amin ,and when the time na pwede ng makabyahe ang mga senior cetizen ,dali dali siyang umuwi sa amin kasi fiesta din yun ,every fiesta ,christmas or new year at souls day uuwi talaga yun .I did'nt expect na last na namin siyang makikita last April 2021 .Umuwi din ako dun kasama mga anak ko at asawa ko pero 1 day lang kami dung para hindi kami ma quarantine .And my lolo naman ay siguro na sa 3days na siya dun until the baranggay staff came to tell him na pag nag stay siya ng 1week dun ay e quarantine na siya dun ,so what he did was dali dali siyang umuwi sa bahay nila.

But he was planning to go back there on the 12th of June but it will never be happen.

Last June 8 in the afternoon around 6 to 7pm my auntie recieve a text message from his wife na ,wa la na siya nag suicide siya ,they found him dying alone with a rope tied in his leg.I can't believe it when i heard the news about him .All night I was crying .Naawa kami dahil namatay siyang mag isa.

The pandemic causes him to suffered depresions ,his family was busy of their work ,his wife was working and their children too so siya lang mag isa sa bahay.He wanted to go home to our place but ayaw na ma quarantine .We heard that last June 4 ay na nerbyos siya dahil sa malakihang baha sa kanilang lugar at natakot siya kasi siya lang mag isa ,ne rescue siya ng barangay staff kasi nasa trabaho ang pamilya niya .Hindi ko alam anong exact day na napagalitan siya kasi sabi nila doon napagalitan daw si lolo dahil naka popo sa short niya and we think na yun yung dahilan ng ginawa niya ,na depress kasi walang kasama ,walang makakausap ,gustong umuwi sa amin pero mahirap bumyahe kasi pandemic ,at ayun winakasan niya ang kanyang buhay.

My message to someone who suffered depression.

Don't let the depressions win ,you must be the winner of the battle you are facing .Ending your life was never a best solution ,always remember the people around you ,they love you more than what you know.Life is precious .Move your self closer to GOD and surrender him all your worries and anxiety.

To all who are living with an elders ,extend your patience please ,they need more attention ,we must care them and let them enjoy the day that they were with us.

My birthday message to him,

Happy 80th birthday pa ,I pray na happy kana jan in the hands of our God ,no more pain pa ,we miss you so much and we love you❤️you are forever in our hearts.❤️

Hindi ko mapigilang maiyak while writing this ,we missed him so much ,siya nalang kasing natitirang grandparents namin😭.Masakit mawalan ng minamahal pero kailangan tanggapin.

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Stay Safe ,Healthy and Happy

GOD BLESS