@Chamomile 12 August 2020 more from that month

Caressing Darkness

***Where am I?*** ***Why can’t my eyes even foresee my tomorrow?*** ***Why can’t my sense of smell notice your scent, your scent that relieves me?*** ***Why can’t I even feel your warmest hug that can melt my frozen body?*** ***Why can’t I even take just a single drop of your smile that can sweeten a cup of dark chocolate?*** ***Why can’t I even tangle every strand of your hair?*** ***Why can’t I even whisper my loudest scream saying how much I adore you in your ears?*** ***Why can’t I reach your hand even just the tip of it?*** ***Why can’t I catch you laughing out loud with me?*** ***Why can’t I listen to my favorite music, your heart beat?*** ***Why can’t I recognize you coming back into my arms?*** ***Why can’t I hold on to something, and turn it into everything?*** ***Why can’t I?*** ***Can you give me a hint?*** ***Why?*** ***Why can my eyes always look back from my doomy yesterday?*** ***Why can my nose still notice your scent even if it slowly fades away, and it weakens me?*** ***Why can I even feel that you’re getting cold as you loosen your tightest hug?*** ***Why can I take the whole cup of dark chocolate just to see you smile, even in bitterness?*** ***Why can I let someone else to tangle every strand of your hair?*** ***Why can I just scream and shout in front of you telling how painful it is seeing someone whispering into your ears?***   ***Why can I see you laughing out loud, laughing with someone else?*** ***Why can I even listen to my favorite music, your heart beats for someone else?*** ***Why can I even recognize, you’re no longer coming back into my arms?*** ***Why can I hold on to something, to everything but turns into nothing?*** ***Why can I?*** ***Why can I just let you go?***  ***Who am I by the way?***