@Chamomile 23 July 2020 more from that month

Dusk

***I chose to fall in love with the peach and rosy dust of sky*** ***Where stars are as cold as ice, where moon is as strong as soldiers.*** ***Where the light breeze wipe the tears messed on my cheeks,*** ***Keeping my wildest sob.*** ***And my eyes spoke for me.*** ***I am no conqueror, I am a ghost.*** ***No one could speak for me but myself, ‘coz I am “No one”.***   ***Screaming at the old shadow of uncherished happy memories.*** ***Feels like begging for our still pictures posted on the wall to come out.*** ***Just saw you killing with your sweet smile, finding out how weak my reflection is.*** ***Caught you with 10 bullets in the middle of your tricky heart.*** ***Bloody bullets that drive you crazy melt your shield of steel just a flash of second.***   ***Invincible bullets that give you the will to spend most of your time with her.*** ***Feeling like ‘twas me, whom could lead you in the world of reality*** ***Where I myself is just an illusion, where existence means nothingness.*** ***So suddenly, stole you giggling having your adrenaline rush as you back read your previous ‘til present conversation.*** ***How awful!*** ***Everything betrayed me! You betrayed me!*** ***But oh, I betrayed me!*** ***I betrayed myself having the belief of love in its purity.*** ***Yeah, it showed its genuineness, only people imitated Shiva.***   ***So now, let me describe the ambiance of the place where I am at this juncture:*** ***Rusting nails making an attachment with the pieces of firewood.*** ***Brittle fences caused by armies of termites*** ***Lignite turning into ashes*** ***Wild green grasses into haystack*** ***Transmuted sap of Venus flytrap with its venomous claws sipping the prey’s whole strength.*** ***Infectious lean meat sucked by mighty parasites.*** ***Just like US into ME, real quick!***   ***Let my soul be reincarnated, as the sun left the moon, the occurrence of fission of light and darkness.*** ***Draw billions of stars, throw them up the sky, and bring back their glow.*** ***Let them blink the entire night as the dawn breaks.*** ***Give me my moon, alone.*** ***Let him hear my plea, he won’t talk me back.*** ***So, I can stare at him, forever.*** ***But still, I never saw you crying.***