Anticipation hogging my psyche!

Rendering me fear everything will go nasty  I am enduring from perturbation, The perception of wakefulness all through the twilight  My sanity is full of undesirable notions  I dismay of peril around me, The perception of trepidation in every stride I take in vitality, Moaning, whimpering I feel like deceasing, I glimpse myself in the reflector,  My physique is full of blotches, My apparel is insulated with blood pigments!  I perceive someone's dignity around me!  I glance around here and there,  With inflated essence rate,  Now I am determined to resist against you!  Compelling me ill mentally and physically, I will strive to vanquish my apprehensions, I know it's not susceptible,  But I reckon I will beat over my uncertainties  My intellect full of suicidal reflections  But I no longer want to heed to my psyche  My battle is still on,  I know one day I will be triumphant!