Is It Real?

This Will Make Me Feel Better Those Were Just Voices Of A hater I will Get Baked And Study Later  But The Voices Just Terrify Me I can’t fall asleep  Damn  these nightmares are deep  I hear voices when it’s quiet  I see monsters when it’s dark  Is it the herb? Is it the Khat? Was it inherent ? Should I repent?  I numb the voices with booming music  I numb the memories by fooling myself More liquor please  I need a kiss  But when She tries to speak  The voices peak  Into my mind a monster sneaks  Of whom I wish I could take a pic  Coz in my head is a mutant With Hulk’s Fury  Like Dracula, Never Hesitant  And To Him Im like an ant I wake up every day hoping  That yesterday was the last time  Maybe that prayer sent him packing  Leave my mind please Im begging  Its been three months clean  And far away from me  Is where the monster has been  Was it just that easy?  Maybe I can take a puff, But should I?  Was it a phase?   Am I schizophrenic ?  Or could It have been real?