"I am too scared to be nervous"

In the deep dark woods, a dark dark depth took away the shine, of a small girl left, it wasn't a threat it was a theft, took away everything from the little girl's Shelf. Minam a little girl was send away to a boarding School, it was 1970s a time where woman were only taught to become good wives to rich bossy Husbands. In thosc dark times it was impossible for a little girl to survive, with a tainted heart and shattered soul she stood beside the Sota as hcr tather spoke ot the news of her acceptance to St.Patrics Girls Boarding School. The room around her was exhausting she could fccl the walls holding the breath of the room with in they weren't ready to let go, looking at all that exhaustiVe attirc ot the room she could feel herself exhausted too. "Are you nervous Miriam?" Miriam's Mom Hella asked her she was a kind lady but with a mind no indifferent then the others like her father looking down from ovcr the top Window. Mother askcd Miriam a contusing questions turns out Miriam knew exactly how she was fecling "I am too scared to be nervous" Now that was just sad, at that time Girls who spoke that way were considered treachcrous and wickcd with a dark scnse of humor Miriam's Mother Hella after listening to that was more deternmined that her decision for Miriam is correct that she indecd nccded to know about all the tacts, and opinions about being a lady. Merciful Lies, Miriam whisperecd to hersclf. The word sound quite delicate at the moment she coulcl fecl it cchoing inside her mind, however, it was just to calm Miriam's rendered hcart. Cross, of Jesus hanging around her neck like a Suicide rope, she could feel it all inside thc pendant thc Jesus pendant around her Neck it was too heavy. The reason it was so hcavy wasn't its Weight it was its origin. The pendant rcpresentcd cverything that she was carrying It was a gift by the same parents who didn't want her the way shec was. The gift was but a burden. It was a Constant reminder of all the responsibilities, and work that had been bcstowed upon her. She knew that her pendant was too heavy to be worn. She sat on her seat on the Car that would drop her at her new School. As the Car started, and she was tar away trom her home Miriam threw the pendant off the Window. She felt a lot less heavier now, she felt lighter and casy as if the burden ot responsibilitics that she carricd was just reminiscence. to be continued..