My Insecurities: The Imperfect Me
Blog #105
December 22, 2021
This is my entry to the prompt made by @Theblackdoll which is all about #MyInsecurities.
Living in a place where there are lots of judgemental people was never been easy. They threw some hurtful words that could leave scars in our life. Those negative words that I heard from them made me lose my self-confidence to face people and that I just wanted to stay inside our house.
Our house is the only place where I was comfortable staying. My family accepted me for who I was unlike when I go out, I would hear so many criticisms. But I should never let those insecurities stop me from discovering myself. That's why I face it and embrace, now I can fully share with you the things that I am insecure about.
My Insecurities
Having white hairs
Ever since when I was young, I already had white hair. This had been my problem especially when I am in public because it can be seen easily.
Every time, I went out I get conscious because I already encountered many people who used to think that having white hair means I am old already.
I remember my boyfriend's mother before who told me "Hoi, tigulang naman ka oi, daghan kaayo ka ug puti sa buhok" (Hoi, you're old already coz you have lots of white hairs). After hearing it, I was ashamed to face them. I am ashamed of myself and even question why I had this condition. Why I am different from my brothers and sisters who have black and shiny hair.
Having space between my teeth
Do you confidently smile when you face people? Me, I don't because of my teeth that have space in between. It's just on the upper part but still, it's very visible when I smile.
Every time I laugh and smile, I had to cover my mouth with my hands so no one would notice it. I was told before by someone that my teeth are ugly coz there are spaces in between and not only that when I smile my gums can be seen too.
When I was still eaten up with these insecurities, I would feel jealous of others who have shiny and black hair plus the white shining teeth that are perfectly aligned.
But as time pass by, I learned to ignore all those but there are still times that I am conscious about myself. I can't avoid it though especially since I received lots of negative comments about myself before.
I am an imperfect woman but despite those imperfections, I still call myself beautiful and lucky. Beautiful in my way and lucky because I have someone and my family who accepts me without judging me. They accept my imperfections and flaws and never forget to remind me how they love me every day. I am imperfect but they always make me feel special.
Accept ourselves, face our insecurities and discover the beauty that we have in ourselves.
Those are just the top two insecurities that make me lose my self-confidence before.
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I would never ever see white hair as an Insecurity.. because it gives us a beautiful Salt and pepper look .. white haired poeple are not old, they are wise :)) and if you are too worried about teeth gaps (which I think you shouldn't and you would look unique), maybe fill them up visiting a dentist sis :)).. For me, you areone of the most hard working people here, I will judge you only on that :))) Love you