I overthink too much when I'm alone
Heyya! Read idols, how have you been lately?
Supposedly, I wouldn't be writing an article tonight because I felt out of sorts for most of the day due to weather change yesterday. I lined up outside for almost two hours waiting for my turn to vote while it was raining lightly. Aside from that, I am currently struggling with diarrhea for two days now. I feel like throwing up or puking that's why I immediately took some medicines to make me feel better somehow.
At this moment, I would like to answer some random questions that I got from@Aiah05 's article last week. Thanks mate❣️
Here it is...
When you're alone, what do you usually think of?
I don't like being alone because I can't get rid of negative thoughts that ruined my inner peace. I tend to overthink a lot about my future since I entered college. I am afraid to graduate this coming July because I don't have exact plans on what to pursue after my college life ends. There are also questions that I myself can't answer such as;
What if my plans won't work.
What if my parent's effort and sacrifices were in vain.
What if I can't have a successful career.
What if their negative assumptions of me came true?
How can I deal with rejections?
How can I face the bigger challenges in my career that will come along the way?
So many what if's right? Yet until now I still don't have any better responses to answer those questions, not even a single one. And whenever someone asked me about my tomorrow I just respond them with an awkward smile as if it's not a big deal for me.
Nevertheless, I chose to submit all my worries, anxieties, and plans to God because He knows what's best for me. Indeed, His plans are bigger than mine.
Which one wins: Reality or Imagination
I want everything to be realistic as possible because I don't like the things that I imagined lol. However, I am quite contented with my life's reality as of now, than what I imagined what my life would be in the future. (As mentioned in my first response with the number 1 question).
Is your life going in the direction you want?
As of now, I am standing in the starting line of my journey as a human being. I can't still conclude that my life turned like this or that. However, I am so grateful because few of my dreams came true at some point.
I thought I can't pursue college due to our financial dilemma.
I thought I can't finish my college journey due to the pandemic, thanks to my academic scholarships.
I thought my life would turned out like what my cousins life now (all of them had a family at a very young age). I am the last woman standing kumbaga, pero the pressure is all in me.
In short, I am satisfied with my present life as of now.
Can humans avoid being in love?
We are created because of love. We are born to love and to be loved. Meaning to say, we are the product of God's love and it is innate to a human being to feel and experience love.
Am I a servant of money or does money serve me?
I don't call myself a servant of money nor money serve me either, because it is normal to grind or work to earn money since it is considered to be one of our daily needs in life because we can't buy those basic essentials namely food, water, clothes, and shelter without the presence of it. But in my opinion, the term "DESPERATION" is the word that indicates a man/woman to become a servant of money. Don't get me wrong guys.
There you have it! I need to get some sleep now, and hopefully tomorrow my illnesses will be vanish, IN JESUS NAME! Let's continue to pray and support each other here in this platform. Thanks for dropping by! Hugs and kisses.
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