@Anne2002 20 July 2020 more from that month

Seatmate There is this one guy who; Can make me laugh and can easily make me smile. I feel comfortable when he is around, He is the only guy who made me feel that way. When he is sitting right next to me, I feel happy cause he is there. When he is not around, I feel sad and alone, sitting on my chair. I always want to talk to him, I've probably told him a lot of secrets that I couldn't tell anyone but him. He earned my trust, for I feel safe while narrating my stories and rants to him. Truth is, I just want to get to know him more. And when his eyes looks at me, it makes my heart flutter. I know deep inside my heart beats for him but I'm afraid to admit it to myself and I know he knows that I like him. I felt a connection between us, sadly, it was I who only felt it. It feels lonely when that seat next to me is empty. I know that he doesn't feel the same. This is my way of parting myself away from him. He was just a reminder of someone close to me. He was a good listener but not a good advicer. He was the first guy whom I really trusted. And I know that he is not the one for me and I am not the one for him. This will be the last time that I'm letting myself miss him, love him and think about him. But I'll always treasure those memories that I had with him. So to the guy who sat in that seat, Thank you and Goodbye!