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If she had a choice

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Written by   99
1 month ago
Topics: Life, Thoughts, People, Hate

Published on: October 08, 2021

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Lying on the cold concrete staring at the lonely ceiling, hearing the gush of wind hits my old curtains, the latter dancing in the sweet eerie tempo. It provides a view from the dull outside, not so noisy, yet not so silent.

Today is not different from the previous days. Why am I lying on my cold floor? For a fact that the cold surface reminds me that I'm still alive, afterall the things I've been through. Waking up everyday isn't really encouraging if you'll always hear commands, hurtful words, humiliation and insults or accept some hot hit. If only I had.

There's no need to knock because we don't have a door to start with. Donna walks in and I dotted my gaze on her. She wears a confused and worried expression, I don't know how that happened but that's what I'm seeing, written all over her face, in her eyes.

"What are you doing? Get up! Dad's been calling us."

I rise up. I do not bother to shake the dirt off my shirt and short. Not that it does matter. I heard him anyways, I just don't want to face him and his words again and again.

"He is mad, I know" I hissed grudgingly.

"He's starting again" she added, a bit scared. I only nodded. It's been a routine anyway. Donna rushes past me and there I hear his voice again.

"The money wasn't enough...if only you didn't quit your job-" dad's voice booming, reaching the sensitivity of my heart. As he continue to marvel with his reprimanding . It's my brother who he's talking, shouting and he doesn't say a word. Because we can't...Mom wasn't even successful to explain and defend her son and daughters. Because she can't, he's not listening and instead blame her for how worthless and humiliating we are as their children. I always hear it, I always feel it. We always do. What can a young me do? He's always obliging us to work already, pay for all his debts, although we aren't even of the legal age.

From my brother's reprimanding session, it will then be my turn. Everyday, and it's already tiring. Funny that even from the tiniest mistake it triggers him and then boom, explosion. He does not only spot it, rather he creates it. He's the ultimate definition of a controller-freak. And I am too embarrassed that I can't, we still can't get away from him.

Children are entitled to enjoy life and attend school. And it's parent's duty and responsibility to fund their sons and daughters education, for what? to possibly secure their life and future. I adore parents who do their best to send their children to school. Even if they know it'd be a tough fight, they'll fight. But it's not for him. I am losing interest in life seeing this kind of living, this kind of parent. He's a monster. He doesn't like being corrected, he believes he says right, everything he say and know are all damn right and that we should follow him. His words. His decisions...

If I had the choice, I wouldn't have wanted to live in the first place. I had the chance to end my life, I tried to but it wasn't my time yet.

If I had the choice, I would have chose a better pair of parent. Let mom stay, but she deserves someone better. Someone who won't leave her without a choice, who would not treat her lowly, shouts at her and definitely someone who wouldn't make her feel small and would never hurt her...

If I had the choice I would have been away from here but now I can't. Once I can, I will cut ties with him. I will forget who he is. I will never forgive him.

Don't try to defend him. You don't know what he has done. What he is, how he was able to inflict terror within us. He's not a parent...parents are not supposed to be like that...

This is NOT MY story to tell, but I'm telling it. Good girl, aight?

I sympathized with those people who have such kind of parents. Who are feeling so unlucky...I am so sorry.


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This is quite similar in my life story. From the moment I have conscious for things around me, it was the time I kept seeing scenarios which are repeatitive . Mother's are the best. They always value their children no matter what. My father was used to be alcoholic . There were no Sundays he is drunk. Despite everything , there's no single day he will absent from his work and luckily we never experienced to be hunger . And it saddened me the most when my father changed , it was the time my mother died . It's a sad story and memories but covered with full lessons.

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1 month ago

I'm so sorry for your loss dear. Cheer up for she's up there watching and guiding you. Lovelots

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1 month ago

Well, if my father is like that, them better to have none at all. Parents should be the one who will provide and give us security. Not the other way around.

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1 month ago

namarn❤

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1 month ago

Sorry about that. I wish you can overcome that situation. I wish your mother can have more priority. Oh dear, hugs from my world. I can understand the pain.

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1 month ago

It's someone's story lucifer. Don't worry about me. I'll forward your hugs to her. 💚

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1 month ago

I can relate to the story. If I had just the chance to choose a pair of parents then I would rather choose another one. My father is a drunkard and used to hit my mom before. My mom already left us for how many times but then she choose to come back because she doesn't want us to grow up without her. Until now my mom still lives with my dad who treats her awfully.

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1 month ago

hey @bigeyes2012 sorry to hear that. Hope he will be able to realize his mistakes. If not, you guys need to part ways. for the better.God bless you!

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1 month ago

I felt bad for my mom. I'm doing fine now since I don't live with my parents anymore

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