@Alther 20 November 2020 more from that month

You’re My Choice

"We'll stop everything here," said a man in a deep voice. The man tried to look into the eyes of the woman in front of him, he tried to find sadness from the woman, but his guess was true, that the woman in front of him did not feel sad at all. "Well if that's what you want Kevin, let's end this relationship" replied the beautiful woman calmly. "Sure enough, I guessed, you never loved me at all. Our Thalia has been together for 2 years. Have you never loved me at all? " "Kevin, why are you asking a question like that? You've ended our relationship, so I don't need to answer your question now. ”The beautiful woman named Thalia left her ex-boyfriend Kevin who was still sitting quietly in the cafe. Kevin looked at the window in front of him and saw Thalia who walked further away until her beautiful body was out of sight. Thalia woke up from her sleep, she stared at the ceiling of her bedroom wall. He took a deep breath and then exhaled softly. She still couldn't believe that yesterday she and Kevin had ended their relationship, whether they should be happy or sad about their break up, but Thalia felt a little relieved that she would now no longer bond with Kevin who really likes to play with girls. Thalia got out of bed and went to the bathroom to get ready for college. After finishing getting ready, he immediately went downstairs and met his parents who were waiting for him at the dinner table. He smiled kindly, trying to hide all his problems from his parents. "Good morning mother, good morning father" "Good morning too dear" replied Thalia's father while kissing his beloved daughter's forehead. Thalia smiled then sat down at the dining table and enjoyed her breakfast. "Thaliaaaaa ... let's get late" came the voice of a man screaming outside Thalia's house. Thalia, who realized that someone was shouting her name, immediately rushed over and said goodbye to her parents. Thalia ran out of the house and when she got outside the house she saw a handsome man playing with his cellphone. Thalia gave the man a snide look then walked slowly over to him. “Can't you be patient for a moment? I just ate my breakfast but your screams make my appetite for breakfast disappear ”. "We're too late, you know we now have practice. Get in the car quickly ”. Thalia got into the car with such an annoyed expression on her face, then she glanced at the man who had been scolding her. The man was Nathan, Thalia's best friend. They have been friends since they were in grade 2 of Junior High School (SMP). They often quarrel, argue over trivial issues that can still be resolved through discussion. Even though they often fight but it doesn't make them far away from each other, they also realize that they really need each other. "I heard you broke up with Kevin but why don't I see your sad face?" "Hey Nathan, why do I have to be sad if I break up so I just broke up" "You are really really weird, when a woman your age breaks up, they will definitely be sad or at least be confused, keep whining asking for something back." Nathan and Thalia laughed together in the car. Thalia knew that when she was with Nathan there would be no sadness in her because Nathan was very good at making her laugh out loud and forget about her sadness. Thalia is not unhappy that her relationship with Kevin will end, but Thalia also can't lie that she doesn't love Kevin. Thalia accepted Kevin because, at that time they had been arranged by their parents, Thalia could not refuse because at that time they were still young. "Now what about Thalia? If you're not sad at all, is it possible that you never loved Kevin? " "Exactly, I never loved him at all. You also know Nathan, I was with him just to carry out that ridiculous matchmaking. Besides, I've loved other people for a long time " Nathan was surprised to hear Thalia's words. He stopped the car suddenly and made Thalia so shocked and immediately scolded him spontaneously. Nathan apologized to Thalia for stopping the car suddenly, Thalia forgave Nathan. "Then who is the man you love?" "You…" "Don't joke, Thalia, I'm serious." "I'm serious Nathan. I've been in love with you for a long time, but I can't tell you because at that time you were still with Tika and I was still with Kevin " Nathan looked at Thalia's beautiful eyes and looked for lies in Thalia's eyes, but he did not see the lies in Thalia's eyes. Thalia's eyes were so sparkling that what she said was the truth. Nathan ignored Thalia's words, he immediately started the car again. Thalia looked disappointed at Nathan's cold response. Thalia looked down sadly mixed with embarrassment, her feelings that Nathan did not get anything back. There was a sudden silence, neither Thalia nor Nathan spoke a single word. They are busy with their own feelings. Arriving at the campus, Thalia immediately left without speaking to Nathan. Nathan felt so sorry for Thalia for making Thalia so sad. “I know, Kevin and I have been together for 2 years but still I never felt any vibrations towards him. My heart is so hard to love him because all this time I have given my heart to Nathan. I know Kevin really loves me and he can also understand my feelings but I also can't keep lying about my feelings, am I wrong Jes? " explained Thalia to her best friend Jessika. Thalia could no longer contain her sadness, disappointment, and anger at this moment. Even if the relationship with Kevin ended, it was not his wish but Kevin himself would end it. “Thalia, I know that there are no feelings that can be forced. Likewise with your feelings for Kevin and Nathan's feelings for you. These are all problems of your heart, let Nathan find the answers for yourself. Let him arrange his heart first so he also knows he loves you too or not, give him time ". "I'm afraid Jes, because of my confession Nathan will stay away from me". "Thalia ..." "Indirectly I have made a distance between me and him, I really love him. I can't stay away from him, I always need his figure in my life ”. Thalia shed her tears, she couldn't stop her crying anymore. He was too tired to act like everything was fine all this time. He could not imagine that his confession made him and Nathan apart. Jessika patted Thalia's shoulder lightly while trying to comfort Thalia. Without realizing it, Thalia and Jessika found that outside of the classroom Nathan was listening to their conversation. Nathan stared sadly at Thalia from a distance, her heart was in pain because she had made Thalia so sad. "I don't know what to do with you Thalia, I'm sorry I made you so sad," thought Nathan as he left without entering the class first. It was a week after Thalia confessed her feelings to Nathan and after that, the two of them did not greet each other. Thalia ignored Nathan's call, she tried to stay away from Nathan in her own way. Even though he did it the wrong way, he still did it, he was afraid and unable to face Nathan especially when Nathan ignored his feelings. Nathan went to the campus and while in the corridor of the campus he saw Thalia who was looking calmly at the wall. Nathan walked over to Thalia and patted Thalia on the shoulder lightly. Thalia glanced behind her and saw Nathan already behind her. Thalia tried to leave but Nathan's handheld her back. Nathan's hand gently grasped Thalia's and tried to prevent Thalia from leaving. "Let's talk" Nathan asked, but Thalia refused by trying to remove Nathan's grip from his hand. "Thalia give me a chance to fix it". “Thalia…” shouted someone who was shouting Thalia's name. Thalia and Nathan simultaneously glanced at the source of the sound and saw Kevin walking towards them. "Kevin, why are you here?" Thalia asked, confused. Kevin glanced at Nathan's hand which was holding Thalia's hand then smiled sarcastically at Nathan. Thalia who realized immediately let go of her hand and left the two of them. Kevin, who had wanted to talk to Thalia, gave up his mind and turned to talk to Nathan. “I know Thalia likes you, please take care of her and don't let you hurt her. She is a kind and innocent girl, I'm sure you know it because you've been friends for a long time. After talking to Nathan, Kevin left Nathan, who was still trying to digest Kevin's words. Nathan saw Kevin, who was further away from his sight after being out of sight Nathan went running to the backyard of the campus, Thalia's favorite place on campus. When Nathan got there, Nathan tried to find Thalia, his eyes were so observant of every corner of the page that he finally found Thalia who was sitting in deep thought with her ears attached and closed her eyes. "Thalia ...". Thalia opened her eyes and looked at Nathan who was standing in front of her. Their eyes sparkled when they met, both Nathan and Thalia were so nervous because this was the first time they were looking at each other after a week of avoiding each other. "I'm sorry for everything, I don't mean to ignore your feelings. I just…" “No problem, you don't have to worry about how I feel for you. Just let my feelings be, you don't need to be responsible for my feelings. This is my feeling and you also have no right to prohibit me from liking you, ”Thalia said interrupting Nathan's words. “But Thalia…” Nathan tried to explain, but again Thalia interrupted him. “Sorry that I put some distance between us. I love you but I realize where the relationship between you and me lies. We are only as friends, that's enough ”. Thalia left Nathan without hearing Nathan's explanation. Nathan sighed and then exhaled, he couldn't believe Thalia's stubbornness was also used in this matter. Nathan chased after Thalia then grabbed Thalia's hand and made Thalia fall into his arms. "Kevin understands you better than I do. He knows what you want but not me. Sorry that I didn't pay much attention to you all this time, I'm too jealous of you and Kevin. I love you so much since we were in middle school, I approached you with the label best friend but not with my heart " “Don't talk nonsense to me, I know you never loved me. Stop pretending, I beg Nathan. ”Thalia shed tears, she let go of Nathan's hug and glared at Nathan. “Don't lie to me saying you love me. If you can't reciprocate my feelings just ignore me, ”continued Thalia. Nathan grabbed Thalia's face and wiped Thalia's tears with his fingers. Thalia looked back at Nathan but this time her gaze was so sad that she couldn't even cry anymore. Nathan's gentle touch made him so calm as if he had returned to find Nathan's figure that he had been missing. "Can I hug you?" asked Nathan and Thalia nodded her head. Nathan pulled Thalia back in his arms. She hugged Thalia so tightly that it made Thalia so peaceful in Nathan's arms. "Now you are quiet, let me speak this time," said Nathan. “Thalia, when you said you loved me to Jessika, you didn't even know that when I first met you I started falling for you. When you say you need me and can't live without me, you also don't know that I've made you a part of my life. I've given you my world since long ago but it's just that I can't tell you. I'm sorry, I understood everything too late, ”explained Nathan. Thalia smiled at Nathan's explanation, she could not hide her happiness when she knew that Nathan, the man she loved, also loved her. Thalia returned Nathan's hug so tightly and heard Nathan's heartbeat the same as him. "Kevin is good, he's like my imagination, but I can't think of him as more than a friend. I just want to be with you, you are the rainbow for me and you are the choice of my heart. “Nathan, I love you very much,” continued Thalia. "If I am the rainbow for you, then you are the color for me. Because without color, rainbows will never exist. Neither am I, if you are not there I will lose some of my colors. I also love you very much, Thalia ”. Nathan and Thalia's eyes met again, this time their eyes also explained how happy they were because now everything they wanted having come true. The love that grew between them has now united and made their friendship based on the name of love. Nathan kissed Thalia on the forehead gently, indicating that now they were back together in a bond called love. And finally, love will speak when silence cannot explain everything. There is nothing wrong with loving your own friend because the heart does not determine who he should fall to but he knows who to say to. Like Thalia who said that her heart chose Nathan as her choice of life, so did Nathan who made Thalia part of her life.