Still rehearsing my smiles, so it's not obvious that I'm hurt My feelings are suppressed, i control not cry It's so difficult Will I still pretend? That I was happy Even the truth is that I'm not okay, I'm broken inside, All they see is my lack on things, they just see my mistakes They don't see the sacrifices i did for them They put the blame on me I can't do nothing about it, i can't change their minds but hoping that i will be okay later or tomorrow Sorry for posting like this, i just want to let go of the feelings i have felt inside. I don't have someone to talk at the moment. So i just write here to ease the hurt.