@Aalia 6 October 2022 more from that month

“Every day I put love on the line. There’s nothing I am less good at. I am far better at competition than love; far better at responding to my instincts to get ahead than at figuring out how to love another. I’m schooled and trained in getting my own way. And yet, I decide every day to set aside what I do best, and attempt to do what I do very clumsily—open up myself to the frustrations and failures of loving, daring to believe that failing in love is better than succeeding in pride.