@Aalia 31 October 2022 more from that month

Some days I just don’t want to… like today … I don’t want to play. I don’t want to cook. I don’t want to parent. I don’t want to wife. I don’t want to do anything, but sit there and scroll. It’s not all the time. I don’t always feel this way. But, my body and mind need a break; and they start to show me. My body shows me this with an ache in my foot that won’t go away without rest. A headache that reminds me to drink water and slow down. My mind shows me this with forgotten words (known as mom brain) and a lack of patience when I’m normally plentiful. I’m running on empty. I’m surviving on fumes. I can’t drive the car on fumes; and I can’t be the mom, wife, and human being I need to be on fumes either. Finally, I just don’t want to. That is what forces me to rest. It forces me to take a much needed break, even if my children decide to destroy the house while I do so. Some days I just don’t want to. And so I just don’t. I recharge. I rest. I refill my tank.