@Aalia 21 November 2022

People always say that life isn't a race or a competition. That we shouldn't be comparing our progress with others' because we all have different privileges, goals, timelines. And while I know it's true, a part of me is guilty—the part that usually keeps me awake at night. I guess I'd like to believe that it's fair to long for the good things, too. For the rewards and the comfort after a long day. I think it's perfectly reasonable to expect that after braving up and trying so hard to catch up with the world, you at least get to have something that will make your heart peaceful. Sometimes, it makes me a little sad when I find myself comparing. If the things I long for really aren't meant for me, I hope to find my calm.